With each day I delve deeper and deeper and to the surface comes something more that I rediscover about myself. Some qualities I’ve completely forgotten – perhaps not forgotten, just didn’t look at them as special qualities. I mean, everyone has them right?
But that’s not entirely true and besides, it shouldn’t matter because I possess these qualities and that alone should be sufficient. I’ve asked this before and ask again; why is it so difficult for us to embrace those qualities that are good about ourselves?
We are entirely too eager to accept all that is bad; heck when it comes to listing, I bet our lists are double – no triple the length of our ‘good’ list. This is a quality that I’ve been working on within myself to change. I mean, if I can’t sell myself on my great qualities, how am I to sell a potential employer?
As I’m writing this, there is a CD playing of The Carpenters – their Christmas CD and I’m singing along with it. I’m going to be bold enough to say I LOVE my voice. It’s deep, smooth as butter and my range is over three octaves. I not only love to sing, I love to look at the smiles of those I’m singing with and for. It is a talent that I’ve taken far too much for granted.
As a girl I started singing as early as 4 or 5, they accepted me in the church choir before any of the other kids. Still, I just thought everyone could do the same, “I wasn’t so special”; I would think to myself. But a dear friend of mine reminded me of just how wonderful it must be to have a talent like mine and how much she would give for that.
I used to curse this voice of mine though; can you believe that? You see, all the lead parts were for Sopranos, not a Contralto – we do always seem to want that which we don’t have…true? The highest I could go was Mezzo Soprano (a lower soprano). Not bad, but still not a lead role.
As I’ve aged, I’ve realized that we each have our own gifts and my voice happens to be mine; special only to me. My voice is my instrument and is something I rehearse and warm-up like any instrument. It is a part of me that I truly love as it is one of the most defining things about me. Most who know me and hear my name, immediately mention my instrument. That’s a pretty good feeling now that I think of it. They say to do what you love and the money will come…interesting thought, come to think of it.